He Let Go

He lies on his bed thinking back and reflecting how a once perfect affinity has now become whatever it has;

What went wrong he whispers looking at the ceiling as if staring at the stars;

Not long ago he thought, no, he knew they could conquer the world together;

Each day brought more beauty he never knew existed;

He always knew he had a deep affection for her;

Clearly at first it was a crush, but with more time together grew a tree blossoming with fruits of love;

But he couldn’t bring himself to tell her how he truly felt fearing the worst;

He thought it wise rather to write a story about their connection only to get what he feared most. Rejection;

How? He thought. We definitely had something or was it I alone?

A whole lot of emotions swelled up in him ranging from anger to embarrassment;

He swore to avoid contact with her altogether but everyday was harder than the last;

And then he knew he couldn’t avoid her;

There she was looking ravishing as usual;

He saw her, she saw him, but the shame he still felt was lingering and he could not muster the courage to talk to her;

She clouded his thoughts the whole day and he finally gave in and texted her at night;

But he knew they weren’t going back to how they were before and it irritated him much;

And with all that frustration lying inside him, he unleashed on her unsuspectingly at her most vulnerable;

Strike 2;

This clearly isn’t what he wants, he hurt her real bad with some harsh words and the pain burned him afterward;

The once confident boy had lost faith in himself but swore to make things better;

Trying too hard at making conversations, and the ‘no’ he gets when he asks her out cripples his self faith;

He now feels sorry for himself and is lacking in ideas;

He reflects on his mistakes and always grits his teeth at how many he’s made regretting each one severely;

Pathetic is what he has become;

To make things worse everything around him isn’t going great either;

He suddenly realizes how weary he has become;

Then he knows it’s time to let go, in order to move on he knows what he ought to do no matter what pain it may cost;

Once he knows what to do, his self pity automatically deserts him;

He knows deep down he never meant harm and hopes for the best in her endeavors.

He smiles now because he knows the old him is back and even better than before.

….The Truth Shall Set You Free

Let’s analyze the truth here. Where’s the story for our truth analyses? Well there’s no story but let’s analyze the truth anyway. What’s truth? Honestly I can’t put it in words but I’m sure I know what truth is. We always face decisions every second of our lives and there are only two outcomes to these: truth or other? As humans, most of us weigh up the options and normally take the easiest option we feel available which in most cases isn’t the truth.
Why do we do that? Simple..I just explained it, we feel the need to take the cheapest way out. The phrase “….the truth shall set you free” seems easy to relate to when we aren’t faced with any choices to take but as soon as a decision is to be made that phrase mostly isn’t in consideration. What is truth? Truth is good. Good is such a broad term, but really truth is good. I recently decided to try to live an entire day without lying. Honestly, I don’t know how I fared but it felt really good because it made me happy knowing I’m being straight with my self with everything and not having to try and put on a charade for anyone. I felt light actually. No real problems weighing on me and I found my self smiling a lot. Now the problem with this was I noticed that I was a really good liar that I started believing some of my lies. So when I decided to try and go a whole day without lying I struggled at first because I had to think before giving an answer. I’m not saying the truth is pretty. It could be pretty, bad, nasty but once it’s the truth it’s the truth and it shall set us free. Standing for the truth is supposed to be easy as that’s the right path, but is it? Surely I’m not the only one who feels the truth mostly creates more harm at first than good. That’s the funny aspect and the striking difference between the truth and the lie. The lie really seems sweet in the beginning and everything is alright whiles the truth seems difficult at the onset but lies no matter how good we feel they are never lasts and eventually the truth comes out. So why can’t I just get the truth over with and leave the rest to God. For in everything we do, at the end if the day the truth prevails. This isn’t even rocket science or religion it’s just life and one of its laws. What is truth? Truth is God. In the beginning God created the world and designated mankind in charge of everything in it except one. The fruit of the tree of knowledge. But mankind’s heart was corrupted by the devil (the lie) and we know what happened next. The lie became sin and sin in turn death. But some two thousand years ago Jesus being the way, truth and life came to live among men to show us what truth is like. He died for our lies, conquered it and now the truth is made available to us by believing in Him and giving ourselves whole hearted to Him. “Small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life and only a few find it.” Matthew 7:14.
Good vs evil, truth vs lie? Deep down we know who always wins, aren’t we winners? Let’s root for the winning team and stick with them forever. Amen